Life is short and everyone has their fix to make it better. Some eat, some drink, get high, some fuck, exercise, some screw everyone. Get a job, support your lover, toil, pay taxes and then ultimately die. Where is the good in life and where is it hiding. Well life is what you make it and what you sew can be hell on this earth. The average life expectancy for Americans in 2010 is 77 years and 8 month's that's time enough for a allot of blood and pain. The fact of the matter is a vast majority of those people don't intentionally kill themselves if you reading this you know it's hard how do you make it through that long?
Recently this shit hit the fan for me. Love hit it's twilight, i left my job there's not much to look forward to. I ate psychedelics, drank like a fish, did hard drug's like there's no tomorrow yet there was no happiness for me. Then one day i wook up with a hard dick and a smile on my face what had changed in my life? I had a dream i was dead six feet under. No one was sad, no one cared. Then i realized that life is too short to base on the short term hardships. Yep i was happy as could be and ready to hop back on the band waggon of happy fucking living.
To cement this i was at the bar last night and one drink after another people faded in and out of the background like a passing pop star. Eventually I looked up and there she was a beautiful woman smiling at me and asking me my name. I told her it was Lou.... Lou the 80,000 dollar a year account's manager and she ate it up like a feast at Christmas's. I knew it was a lie I'm a flat broke writer with nothing to lose, the whole situation speaks to the state of our society. Question everything, while trusting everything why would i have a reason to lie. Am i an asshole, who knows i think not just a guy trying to find my happiness in this dark world. If i was looking for a relationship i would have got to know her or got a number before i went to her place. She cant be mad or she is only lieing to herself, that is who we tend to deceive the most. This story is not about the fuck or weather it was good or not (It's always great). It's about the day by day grind and making a place for yourself in this world and trying to achieve happiness. My relationship was a failure, my work experience a joke, my friend's only out for themselves but LIFE GOES ON. You have to make time for yourself and find what make's you happy. Trial and error is the name of the game folk's and I'm a living legend. I may have failed at most everything iv done but I'm still happy because I'm trying to do right.
If you value happiness don't get to involved in anything that is too far featched from what you believe in. There are 10 million fish in the sea, too many job's to apply to and too many opportunities to reach for. Set you goals high and always shoot for the stars. It's not about the bad in life its all about getting to those brief moment's of happiness and good. Take my advice and enjoy your life to the fullest. That's it for post numero dos have a good night.
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